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Well what can I say this has been a very difficult week for me both practicly and mentaly. For the first I have shitty salary at my job. Number 2 the taxes took half of my salary this month and i donr have any money left. Number 3 i hate a big fight yesterday with my mom because she said that I was dependent person.
Why do mothers always have to make you so frustrated sometimes. The other day I called her and the first thing she says "Do you live in iceland"? "Who are you"? And than I start to tell her about what is happening in my life and in the end she went over the limint when she started to say that i was dependent person and should work more and stuff. I am so trying to please her but i guess this is what the family think about me. A person that is spoiled and saying that i am living in my dreamworld. They think that I am not taking live serously and just having fun. I sjiust dont understand this. What do I have to do please my mother. My brother keeps saying that have to make desicions about if I should stand with my mother or somone else. The fact is that I love my mother and she is so importand thingin my life, how can he expect that I just say fuck you mom i dont care what you say or do this is my life and i dont give a shit what you say. May she is right, maybe I am just living in a dreamworld and doing nothign about my life?
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Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
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Well this question just popped into my head because thos morning i went to the normal check for all sexual disease and the only thing they did was that i pissed into a glass and they took some blood. And that does the same thing like wheni went in Copenhagen and they put a pin into my ass,cock and my mouth and they took some blood tests. I am glad to be Icelandic and proud.
Ired about it on the ESC website that they have desided to have 2 semifinals on the same day before the final in Eurovision song contest. They havent desided yet but i think it will be Wetern Europe against the Eastern Europe so for sure 10 Western countries will be in teh final. The big news are that the BIG 4 (Germany, France, Spain and the UK) have to participate in the semis too.
Finally my parents are stating to celebrate with me that I am going to my dream school. I know that i am going to be poor and eat rice all the time but still I am doing that I love. Why do mothershave to be so stubborn and even if you know that they are wrong but still they affect you so much?
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Well it has been a crazy month at work and in my private life. For the first I have been couching my gay team in Iceland and it has been going better and better. We have improved allot since last summer and are starting to play like a real team. The problem is to deal with 30 Divas that wants everything to be about them self. It feels like babysitting 12 years teenage girls. But i have 2 games to go and than I am off to London. I am gonna try to find some team to play with in London. I think with all the ambition I have i am gonna find team on my level. I hate these teams that are not taking it serious.
What is up with these people and come to Iceland and make trouble. Like this group called "Saving Iceland". They are saying tat we are destroying our country with dams and factories. Do they know what they are protesting against.......No because they are so stupid they probably dont know what is the capital of Reykjavik.
I am gonna miss my friends so much when i move to Iceland. Jóhanna wich is teh best friend you can have is the most unlucky person i have met:) But I love her for what she is. Steinar is always there for me wheni need somone to talk to. He takes me like i am and respects me. Stebbi can tell if i am feeling bad or happy. He is that person that helps and think only of his friends but he forgets to think about himself.Biggi is a guy you can trust and is someone you can always talk to and never stops talking to me even if i am in another country. Óli is the guy that is always there to help to make decisions and tells me when I am stupid and should think about myself. These people are all a part of my heart and will always be there.
I cant describe how excited i am to move to London but at the same time i am so stressed.
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Well it has been a long since i wrote here so I think it is time to start again. 10 things i Love:
1.I LOVE STEINAR
2.I LOVE JÓHANNA
3.I LOVE FOOTBALL
4.I LOVE MY FAMILY
5.I LOVE TO ACT AND SING
6.I LOVE SEX
7.I LOVE MY COUNTRY
8.I LOVE TO TRAVEL
9.I LOVE CHOCOLATE
10.I LOVE TO DANCE
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Sunday, January 28th, 2007
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Well for teh first time i am so glad that i didnt get through to the final in X-factor. My judge Ellý, she made a fool of herself. She is talking bullshit and doesnt know anything about music. I understand now why she didnt pick me, because she only let them sing rocksongs and say that all other music is boring and oldfashion. Well Ellý, Páll Óskar(one of the judges)made you look you were stoned and high. Where you drunk Ellý?
But I think I have to tell you something, I AM IN LOVE:)
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Saturday, December 30th, 2006
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Well I am sitting here again at work drunk. But this time we are both drunk at work so i dont feel guilty. But is this the life i wanna live? Getting drunk every weekend? Desperate not having a boyfriend? The thing is, I am so used to have somone to cuddle with when i come home from school,work or after a big party night. And now that i am single I am just finding difficulty to like setle down and have a stable life. I am always looking for something that dosent exist. What should I do?I know it is not the end of the world, but I just feel frustrated. What is gonna happend? I dont wanna feel like this. Everybody thinks i am so perfect and happy but mister happy can be down also.
I am gettin alot attention with the x-factor thing and I am very happy for that. I cant tell if I am through or not because we have on show more and then we will find out if i am in the final or not:)
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Sunday, December 17th, 2006
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WEll i am sitting here at work and i think i am still drunk hehe. I havent slept for one hour. I think i am gonna get hangover but i am still alive and have 5 more hours to go. I had alot of fun yesterday night. I went out with Jóhanna and Óli and we started to drink at my place before we went to the party. And like usual i got drunk after 2 beers or something hehe........Than Dótla and Dagny came and we went all to Cafe Cosy and were drunk and in a crazy mood. On cosy I met my little crush. It was cute and cosy. But we didnt kiss or anything but we dance a little. I dont know if he likes me or not but I guess I just have to find out by asking him hehe....or not?
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Saturday, December 9th, 2006
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Well it has been a long time since i wrote last time so I think it is time. WEll it has been busy week of work and drama? Last week my BF broke up with me in sms. That is the most immature thing that has ever happend to me. I was gonna introduce him to my mother 2 days later and we were gonna see a play. And he actually thought that we were gonna go all together just like nothing had happend. So I had to call him because he had the tickets to explain to him that this was not possible and first of all he hadnt call or anything.I didnt get any reason until i asked he said he just didnt love me anymore. Thats alsoa good explanation and it sucks to hear it but hay thats life. BUT DONT TELL ME IN SMS.
I think i maight have scared him when I was trying to be romantic. The thing 2 days before did a suprise for him. I had 20 roses and it leaded to my room and on my bed there were roseleafs all over and cookies wtith letters that said i love you.... I made also tickets that said all the sweet things I felt about him. I also baked to 4 a clock in the morning and he didnt even read the tickets or tasted my cookies. So i saw than that something was wrong.
But he is young and has alot to learn and i really feel sorry for him because he doesnt knows what he is doing. Of course it sucks when you like a person and it doesnt like u back. But it was a nice time and I am just gonnalearn from this and keep on goin and do what i like, SING SING SING
WEll i am gonna stop now but i am gonna try to write as much as i can from now on
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Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
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Well finally I got a little vacation from my job and Flew to Reykjavik on Thursday and had a great time. I met so many nice people that I cant wait to hang out with when I move to Reykjavik in september.
On Thursday I went with Búi and we chatted for a long time at a café called Kaffibrennslan. Búi is a wonderful person and a friend that is hard to find. He is gonna visit me to Egilsstaðir in August and i am so gonna show him around like the sunset here. I took a nice picture yesterday from the sunset and all the colors in teh sky are amazing
Taken from my house
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This is just a normal midnight from my window
On friday i met my sister and saw my wonderful Baldur Páll and i think he is like me:) After lunch I met Biggi and we bought camera so now I am gonna take alot of pictures so you can see my beautiful country:)I decided to have a barbecue with my friends. Biggi, Diddi, Andrés, Linda(Andrés's sister), Egill, Simon and Jenny(Simons's sister). We had so much fun and we played Actionaryand I have to say Egill could never be an Arcitekt hehe i have never laughed so much in my life when he was when he was drawing:)After that we went out and danced all night and there i met a wonderful person called Einar and he danced with me, Andres and Diddi all night long.
Biggi and Diddi
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Einar Bragi
On Saturday I went to a birthday party to Jói Kalli and met alot of people and ended up getting so drunk with Biggi and Diddi and me and Diddi came home around 8 in the morning and we didnt know what was upor down:) heheh.....
On sunday I played football with all the gaypeople, they just started a gayfootball and we had so much fun and here are some pictures:)
Well i am just a starter taking pictures here are some pictures that i took in Reykjavik
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Thats the only thing that I do these days. I have got 1 day off since I started working the 5th of June. That is a long period of work and I am getting crazy. But that is all I can think about so I can move in september to Reykjavik. I am going to visit my friends 13th of july to the 16th. That is gonna be nice to see all my friends that i havent seen for almost a year.
I wanna congratulate Peter for passing IB. This is a big victory for him, he has been fighting for this in last 2 years and finally he is finish. I am very proud of you and i wish you the best in the future
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Well I cant say my day was boring yesterday.After work I went out for dinner with my work ar the Italian restaurant Pronto. It was so nice and cosy and teh food was so good. After that we drove to a place called Húsey wich I really can say that it is in the middle of nowhere. 53 km to next place. This trip was part of my job. My job is to inform people about East part og Iceland and we go to visit places to what they have to offer. But this time it was more like trip for fun than work: It was amazing goin on horseriding for almost 2 hours looking at the seals and the nature. We even got attaked by birds hehe...... we got into their territory and they were not happy so the were flying like 5 cm from above us, crazy experience but alot of fun. After we came back we got a homemade pie with whipped cream mmmmmmmm.......... that tasted good. It takes like 1 hour from Egilsstaðir where i live. I just had to tell you little about what my job is about becaus ei think it is very exciting getting payed for trips that you are really having a blast. What can you ask for more, being in the nature, seing the sunset, looking at wild animals and gettin all the stories about the area. Amazing experience.
Location of Húsey
This is Örn the owner and the man who guided us through the tour
Húsey
Seals were everywhere in the river. They are so beautiful
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Horse in Húsey
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Omg I could listen to Celine all day I love her voice.You know I cried when I saw her in Las Vegas I couldnt believe that i was watching her. Peters family just laughed at me hehe.... I know it is silly but I just love her, she is my DIVA.
I am so tierd after gym now, I am goin 5 to 6 times a week to the gym and my body is feeling so good.I am so gonna get fit before I go to Denmark again.Thats my big goal:)
I am going to Reykjavik 13th of July and I cant wait to visit my friend. I have so much time to think and sometimes it is good but I hate it sometimes but I guess it is good. I miss my old life but I guess it is never gonna be the same again.
I am thinking about going to teh Icelandic Idol this september just to try. I really wanna make my dream come true to sing for my country in Eurovision Songcontest.
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I am sitting here with my grandma and mother and we are singign with the best of Abba and I have to say I can sing with every song. For me I think it is one of the best band ever. Teir fame started in Eurovision 1974 with the song Waterloo.I know probably noone agree with me but they have so many song. I is somethign thateverybody like,I mean 3 generation singing to the same song, that have to say something.
I dont think any counrty work as hard like Icelandic people I work 12 to 15 hours almost every day, isnt that sick? But that is just how i was raised up. But when i think about it i dont know any of my foreign friends that work so hard.I justhave one plan andthat is pay my bills so I can mobe to Denmark again. It is not that i dontlike my own country, I am just not ready to go home yet.
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Thursday, June 29th, 2006
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Here is the interview they took with me last thursday about the gay-law. I am almost at the end of the news so please take a look if you have time;)
http://dagskra.ruv.is/streaming/egilsstadir/?file=4289431
Other than that nothing much is happening in my life than I will probably go with my family next weekend to the lobster-festival in Höfn, which is a big festival that people have fun together and drink, eat and dance.
I am listening to Celine Dion and that reminds me how much fun I had in California last christmas. I did so many things and met amazing people and good friends. All these nice restaurants to eat at, driving around San Diego with Peters friends and of course how much Peters family was nice to me. I remember the time when i went to TJ with Peter and Luis, I was so shocked to see the difference between America and Mexico but Luis gave me some mexican food at some local restaurant. Being a part of American christmas was so much fun and Peters mother makes the best Turkey i have ever tasted. But probably the biggest moment in my life was when we drove to Las Vegas and stayed at a wonderful hotel called Paris and we saw Celine Dion. I was like a little teenage girl crying and smiling the whole time. Well as you can hear I had alot of fun and i could be talking about this trip all day. This is something that is gonna stay in my mind my while life.
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Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
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Today I am so proud to be Icelandic. Iceland is the first country in the world to accept gay equal against straight. We can adopt now and we can many other things. The only things that is left now in Iceland is to allow gay marriage in church. I was in the local radio for East part of Iceland and telling them how important this was for us and I think I did a pretty good job. I am starting to think that i am the onlu gay person on this area hehe....... bur i am still proud.I have never had problems here about racism. I think it all depends on how you really are and do you really accept it. If you are cool abou yourself, people stop to be affraid of you and start to respect you. My whoel family are standing behind meeven my grandmother walks with me in the pride.Gaypride in Iceland is all about family and thatwe are part of teh community. Why do we always have tobe different and whydoes everything have to be abot sex and drag in other prides. Ypu really should check out Gaypride in Iceland, it is so different from others.
WLCOME TO OUR GAY-FRIENDLY COUNRTRY ICELAND
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I heard from my best friend Arnar today and we almost cried because we miss each other so much, we talked for an hour og our pivite live. I am so happy that he is finally finding his path in his life again MIss you baby
One positive happend in my life for once hehe......... i found a guy to rent my appartment in Copenhagen so now i dont have to pay the rent. And OMG he is so hot and he is gonna be in my bed hihihi:) He is gonna study here for a while. He comes from ROme in Italy and looks like he is a very nice guy
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I have never seen the sky in a long time like it was yesterday when I was jogging in the forrest. It was colored in red,yellow and orange and making pictures in the sky. This Weekend has a name in icelandic called Jónsmessu night. Divine service Johannes baptism is 24th of june. It took place instead of the sunsetfestival in Rom and was a big fest with fires and dance which they called the Witch Mass. In iceland alot of fairytales happends this night like the cows talking man languages and seals walking. This the night were elfs and trolls come out and dances with fires and play with magic
People used to have alot of fun and asking elfs for food and stuff
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This is how it looked like yesterday
Something positive happend last night i was surfing on the internet and found a person that was looking for room in Copenhagen for a short period and i just started to chat with him and asked if he was interested and in the end we had a deal. I just have to talk to my roomates and ask them if they are ok with it. I know I am taking risk taking to a total stranger but i really cant afford paying rent for 3 months so I am very happy about it.
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Saturday, June 24th, 2006
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It has been long working period since I came to Iceland. I have only had one day off since I started the 5th of June so I think I am doing pretty good. I need the money, that's all I can think about and than I work so hard at the gym. It is even little hard for me to lift my arms because I was 2 hours at the gym and my hands are shaking. I am gonna start using protein soon and built up muscles because I have nearly lost 8 kilos since beginning of April. I am really gonna work hard to get this sixpack but it is difficult because I am one of those persons that have to work so hard to get sixpacks. Some people don't even have to work out to get one.
I am sitting here alone at work getting ready to open and trying to scatter my thoughts but it is so difficult when you have nothing to do you kinda of starting thinking about stuff were you should not been thinking about. I am little fragile at the moment but my grandma cheers me up with all her funny things see says and do. It is difficult when you get hurt by persons you really care for and you even love. But I have my family here to help me not braking down and even though I think alot and dont have time to brake down because I am working so hard.
Egilsstaðir my home is a good place to be now to have a little brake from my life in Denmark. But I miss it though, all my friends, all the things you could do, I could always call somone and talk to an meet, my home, my roomates and all the love i got from my friends that really care for me. I think to myself that i am a very positive person and usually very happy and I have helped so many people from braking down in depression. Am I getting depressed or am I just very emotional and it takes a very long time for me to go on when you hurt? I hope I am not getting depressed, It is just not that lifestyle I want. Maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself and just need to slap my face and say stop crying and do something. The problem is just that I am in Egilsstaðir and not alot of things to do.
I think I am gonna go to Reykjavík soon just to meet my old good friends there and do something different.
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Thursday, June 22nd, 2006
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It was so nice to see my grandmother again when we picked her up in Mývatn.She is an old lady that has the heart on the right place.She is almost handicapped on her legs but She is so strong about living her life that it is difficult to see if see is in pain because she hides it so well. She knows more about the gossips in Hollywood than I know for example. In september all my family will go to spain and celebrate her 80's birthday.
HER SHE IS WITH EMBLA DÖGG
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well I got a call from my best friend in Australia and she asked me if i could start using spell checking on my journal:) I am so sorry Jóhanna i will try my best to write better english hehe.... she has got a blog if you wanna check it out
www.blog.central.is/taslan
Well i am almost finished work for today and i am feeling ok, could feel better but i have my family and friends wich i can trust and count on and that i am very happy about. I don't think I could ask for better family and friends just that my friends are little bit far away from me.
I miss my Diva Arnar which you saw on the picture with me and the feathers around me hehe.
And for those people that are graduating from school congratulation, and good luck with the future. It is a big step for the life, at least it was for me.
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